the library

i dreamed about dick. he was SOOO mad at me. we were in a library....funny because he writes books and when i was in alaska a few months ago i found a book of his at the library.

the fog

i saw the shoreline from the sky

today

09/11/08

i have to go back to get ahead. i keep going back and back. i just did that. what's missing. what am i missing....oh i don't know....just my whole fricken life....thank you God....at least i know i can

08/05/08

i'm in alaska....for now

08/01/08

I lived on a corner lot with my three children and ed. The kids were doing a lot of talking to each other and such. Mike, was under the blanket the whole time. The blanket that he is under now. He never came up from under that blanket. But I could hear voice the way I remember it when he was about 12. Ed says, I have to go to work now...okay bye.
The kids and I packed our bags and moved to the BIG house next door....lol

dreaming

07/31/08

this week i've had some strange dreams....not unusual really, for me....but powerful enough to get off my blubber ass and create this log...lol

i cant remember which day this week, so i guess it doesnt matter. i was staring at the sky and there was a cover of plane lines crossing over each other to form a bowl. and i could hear the President announcing either the beginning of the nuclear war or the end. interesting that i couldnt understand which way he was telling it. then i found myself upstairs in a house, so i figured i was at mr. jasons. whenever i dream of him, i'm upstairs. and i'm standing on a ladder and i hear this sweet little voice and i immediately looked down and asked "savanah, is that you?" but instead it was my daughter, sarah and she was 4 years old. she climbed up the ladder and i held her in my arms as we looked out the window. and outside the window was a parade of hot air balloons with two people in each one. they went by slowly, purposely so that sarah and i could wave back at each of them as they waved to us.